I need a break. A real break. My mind does not function well knowing that this will not be coming until DECEMBER of next year. Spring break wasn't exactly relaxing... and coughing for 2 weeks is exhausting.
I have done my best to not complain much, but really, this is a lot to take on. Today we met with two of our site supervisors. They seem extremely nice and helpful. I am SO excited to start seeing patients... but terrified that it will be too much work to handle with a GSR and couple classes next year. I need a full week off. A full week with no thoughts but of life away from work. No exams, no sickness, just time to relax. Sigh... I need to stop hoping for what will not happen.
I was going to give an outline of my life to come... but that doesn't need to be documented. I need to know that I will get through it. And I need to focus on the fact that I should plan things very carefully, but really life will be broken into 3-week branches... Sometimes I think I'm CRAZY, but then I remind myself that I'm crazy because this is NOT my job YET. And once the TRAINING is complete, I can start living my life in the best way possible: with a job I love to go to, and a man I love to come home to. And nights won't be spent studying/ worrying/ missing and waiting for that life to begin. So here's to me getting through it! 1 year to go!! (all the 2nd years are in the middle of defending their theses!)
Starting tomorrow/tonight I start a new schedule. Seeing as I start seeing candidates for my study next week at 7:30 am, and that means I have to be ready to go by 7:00 am... I need to go to bed earlier. No-matter-what. So why not start tomorrow? I'll leave in the morning and do what I would've done later at night!
This post was more depressing than I intended... my apologies. This is likely because I have passed week 10 of the semester, or because I'm PMSing... Perhaps tomorrow I'll actually talk about my Spring Break...
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